Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Welcome IComLeavWe!

I have been a terrible commenter lately, and needed some motivation to start commenting again. IComLeavWe should help get me commenting again. And it is really fun to explore the blog community. I have been a recluse of late.

Just a little bit about me, and where I am at right now...

Hubby and I have been married almost 14 years now. It is hard to believe we have been married that long! Our family consists of Hubby and me, our two Great Danes, and our three month old baby. I think that Hubby and I are still amazed that we have a baby. The road here was a long and difficult one. It took 10 years, a PCOS diagnosis, a male factor diagnosis, 3 IUIs with clomid, 3 IUIs with injectables, a round of IVF, and a bumpy pregnancy, but we got a happy healthy baby at the end of it all. Absolutely amazing.

I think I finally have my work situation sorted. I going back to work in the OR the first week in May. I am going back flex time, and only working two days a week for eight hours. It feels right for me. Hopefully it will continue to feel right after I start. At the moment I am enjoying not working at all and having unlimited time with my Little Dude.

I found that I am really into baby wearing, and may post more on that this week. I have a couple carriers, and want to buy more. I think I am addicted. I also co-sleep, and breastfeed. That being said, I am by no means a crunchy granola type. I buy processed food often, don't stress over organic food, and I work in an OR. I take what works and what feels good. I think most parents do the same thing. You have to find what works for you.

I am still trying to figure out how to be me and be a mother. In the years it took to get here, I went to school, I worked, and those experiences made me who I am today. I do not want to lose that because I am a mother, too. Yes, my baby is important to me, but I am important, too. I am not going to live through my son. I want to experience things for me. My Little Dude gets to be his own person, and experience the world for himself.

I still feel infertile. I guess because it was a part of my life for so long. There is also the likelihood that we will have to do an FET cycle in order to have another child. (I had a lot of eggs and a few embryos from the IVF cycle.) I am not quite ready to do that, yet. But I know it is there. I will say that I have been sloppy with the birth control. If we conceive naturally, that is great. But I am not expecting to. Considering what it took to get here, I think chances of a natural conception are pretty slim.

Anyway, that is where I am at right now. If you have questions, or want to know more about something, let me know. Looking forward to getting to know you this week!


Mrs. Higrens said...

I'm not ICLW, but I do read more than I comment now, so 'hi'.

I'm glad you are able to do what feels right in regards to going back to work & that the Little Dude continues to be a joy in your life, even if you are still figuring out how to be the you you used to be along with being his mother.

Tami said...
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Tami said...

Thanks!! Also I did get your message and I have no problem if you want to check it out. Someday I will get to the point of sharing with more than family and friends, but I am not there yet. Thanks for understanding.

Shazz said...

Don't worry I too still feel like an infertile. I was ttc for 7 yrs with 11 IVF transfers.
You have to do what feels right and let no one judge you either. I lost alot of myself but in saying that found a part of me I never knew existed and that was being a mother!

ICLW visitor but am going to stay around!

Indigo said...

Sometimes life gets in the way and commenting goes to the side.

ICLW #134/135

Anonymous said...

I feel infertile most of the time too, lol. We've been trying for #2 for over a year now. Great blog, can't wait to read more. I'm your newest follower from IComLeavWe.


K said...

Congrats on your new baby!

I'm in the final stages of my pregnancy but I also feel like I am infertile.

I think I still am. I cured the symptoms but I still have the issue. It's not like I can now procreate at will or anything.


Chelle said...

Thanks for stopping by. I'm glad you did because it brought me over here to your story. A baby 10 years in the making is a long time. He has got to be one very loved little boy. I am always amazed at the strength and courage of people who keep at TTC for so long. I was blessed my battle was only a couple of years. You have an incredible amount of strength.

I am sl glad that you were finally able to bring a baby into your lives. I pray that when you are ready to try again, your battle is short.

Niki said...

Hi thanks for commenting on my blog. I finally found your when I was on another site. I just became a follower and enjoyed reading about your story and have hope that yours has a happy ending/beginning. Your son is adorable and I look forward to learning about your journey.
Happy ICLW! (#70)

justine said...

Finding space for yourself isn't easy. I'm glad that you're trying out a flex arrangement ... I've found that I have to keep readjusting my balance, three years into motherhood. Thanks for visiting! And happy ICLW!

Jonelle said...

Thank you for stopping by my blog and congrats on the new baby.

I hear babywearing is very good for mother and baby. I think that might be something I'd like to do I just need a baby :)

ICLW #94