Thursday, July 31, 2008

Busy, Busy, Busy

I probably will not be able to post again until this weekend. I work 12 hours today, 10 hours tomorrow, and Saturday is our 12th wedding anniversary. Long days at work sort of suck. Oh well. Such is life.

Gertrude is doing pretty well with agility. she is still having trouble with the tunnel, but she is getting most of the other obstacles. I am very proud of her. I need to go by Home De.pot this weekend to get some toys for her so I can lay the foundation for some of the obstacles. I may end up with a mini agility course in our backyard. That should be interesting.

I do not have much else to say right now. I hope everyone else has a good week!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Summertime, and the living is easy!

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This just made me smile. I think it was the mention if itty bitty kitties. Too cute!

Tuesday's Post

I am really crappy with titles. I always feel like my post titles are lame. Usually because they are. Maybe I should start putting more random stuff up there.

Hubby is still sick. I think he is a little worse today than yesterday. He says he feels like he has a fever, and he did feel a little warm to the touch. (I know, not really reliable.) He has been taking Thera.Flu regularly. That stuff really works. He seems to be able to function if he takes it. He has court most of the week, so he cannot really call in sick. Sucks to be him. Hopefully he will feel better by the end of the week. I work later hours Thursday and Friday and cannot be at home to do a lot of coddling. (Not that I do a lot to begin with, but at least I am home to listen to him complain. That is something.) This weekend is our anniversary, and we both would like Hubby to feel better by the weekend. We also would prefer it if I did not come down with the cold. Not that we have plans for the weekend yet.

Work has been light this week, so far. The MDs are mot posting a lot of cases because of the new computer charting system. The computer stuff at work has been just sort of obnoxious. The program was designed with the floor nurses in mind. Which is great for the floor nurses and floor staff, but really obnoxious for the OR staff. OR nurses work a lot differently than floor nurses do. But we do have to do some things with the computer. We send cultures and specimens, and we order blood. All of that has to be done with this new program. You have to go through 5 steps just to get one thing done. Trying to print our pathology order sheet is horrible. You have to put in the order, fill in the form, sign the order, acknowledge the oder, then collect the specimen. All of these things are on different screens, of course.) All of those stpes have to be done before you can print. Meanwhile, the surgeon is still operating, and wondering why the frozen has not been sent. They want to hear back from histology before the patient wakes up, please. If I have a lot of specimens, I think I would give up and just put it on the old pathology form. Half the time the pathology slips don't print, anyway. Houston, I think there is a problem. I may just give up on putting the pathology order in the computer until they figure out a workaround. I think they may find a lot of OR nurses going back to the old pathology form.

I really enjoyed the IComLeavWe, but I think I did not do very well. I tried to do my five comments and one return, but I did not do all of my comments on new blogs. I think part of it is just where I am right now. I am busy and I do not have hours each day to spend reading blogs. Also, I am getting more selective of the blogs I do read. I do not feel a lot of connection with IVF because we are not doing IVF. I also do not feel like reading blogs of pregnant women, or women with new little ones. I think that narrows down which blogs I can read. There are still a lot of blogs I can read, and I did look at those. But I was lazy and did not explore the blogworld as I should have in keeping with the spirit of the week. I may try it again next month and think of a different strategy for NaCom LeavWe.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Tomorrow is Monday!

I really hate working on the weekend. I like having my weekends off to relax and spend time with the Hubby. It just kills my weekend to work on Saturday. Sunday is usually my day to set up for the week ahead, so I end up doing housework and home management stuff on the one day I have off. I think it is going to make me extra grumpy on Monday.

Yesterday was not too awful at work. The whole day was overtime for me because I had already worked 40 hours that week. That was sort of nice. The one thing which made it a headache was this new computer thing at work. They "went live" yesterday. It was not so very awful for OR because the program is not linked to our OR documentation, but we did have to do some things in the program. (Specimens, report to floor, and chart review.) Sort of annoying because some of the practice exercises did not look like the live program. Also our "superuser" was not very helpful. I hate to think what is going to happen on Monday. I suspect the front desk will be chaos, and we may have printer problems as all of are trying to print out pathology forms at the same time. The worst part of the whole day was that I could not go home and medicate with alcohol because I was on call that night. Sigh. At least I can drink tonight in preparation for Monday. Small comfort, though.

Hubby is sick with a cold today. I really do not feel like doing any nursing today, as I had errands and chores to do today. I get paid to do nursing now anyway. (I have noticed I am lot less sympathetic since I became a nurse.) I also wanted some downtime today just to chill out. I bought him cold medicine and cough drops and orange juice, and I am not asking a lot of him today. He volunteered to vacuum the floors. I think he feels a little bad about not doing a lot to help clean house this week. I am letting him vacuum. I think he sort of likes using the Dyson, anyway, so it is not as awful as it sounds.

I hope everyone has a good Sunday!

Friday, July 25, 2008

Happy Friday

I am so very glad it is Friday! Unfortunately, I have to work tomorrow. Bummer. Really kills the weekend. Hubby is already rubbing it in.

My girlie appointment went well. OB/GYN docs always seem to like to prescribe prenatal vitamins if they hear you are trying to conceive. I know, it is good to start taking them even before you concieve. But come on. We have had a decade off birth control without a hit. I think the RE is perfectly capable of prescribing the prenatal vitamins during a cycle when we actually have a shot at getting pregnant. I sort of feel like an imposter getting the prenatal vitamin prescription filled. I am probably imagining things, but it still bothers me, for some reason.

The other thing the OB/GYN doc mentioned was that I had good ovulatory cervical mucous. That has been noted before by my previous RE, and this OB/GYN appointment fell about mid cycle for me. Unfortunately, Hubby and I could not do the deed until last night. Oh well. I doubt it matters. Unless his sperm morphology has miraculously changed in the past few months, I will expect Flo to visit in a few weeks. She always shows up.

I think Hubby is excited about starting fertility treatments this time. He was talking about it last night. He was wondering when we would have to see the RE again. I told him that the next time it would likely only be me because the RE wanted to do an ultrasound of my uterus. I also told Hubby I would let the RE know about our thoughts on treatment when I saw him next. It is nice that Hubby is thinking about it, though.

Gertrude and I finally made it to an agility class. Most of it she did all right. She did fine on the jumps (they were set really low), she went through the tire without any major issues. Some of it was difficult for her, though. It was really hard for her to go through a tunnel which was shorter than she was. I think I need to teach her to crawl in order for her to get through the tunner. She also did not like walking over the ladder. We are working on both of these things.I have confidence she will get it. (With lots of treats and encouragement!)

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Day Off

Thank goodness I have today off. I had to get my girlie parts looked at today by a regular OB/GYN. I had to reschedule the appointment for today. Stoopid work schedule. It is sort of nice to have the day off in the middle of the week, though. I got to sleep in.

That big case I was so worried about went fine. I was really impressed at how well the surgeon did. Her stitches looked beautiful. I did sort of feel sorry about the resident trapped under the robot between the patient's legs, but she was there for a reason. At least it was not me. I have a hunch that I will be assigned to other robot cases now that I have done a couple. This particular surgeon has another one scheduled next Tuesday. At least it is only one case, and not the whole day marathon like yesterday.

I have another chance to make my agility class today. I found the physical location this past weekend, so I have a better shot at actually attending the class this week. I have been sort of slack with spending time training my dog. Hopefully she will do well at class this week. I will let you all know how it goes.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Nervous

I have a big case coming up tomorrow, and I am really nervous about it. I think it is going to be a zoo. I counted, and I think there will be five MDs in the room, five RNs in the room, and the rep for to equipment. I hope it goes well. It is going to be a long day for me tomorrow, probably over 12 hours, and I am not looking forward to it. That is a lot of people to have in one room, and I am not sure if the case is going to go well. There are a lot of unknowns with this case, and a lot of places where things can go wrong. Keep me in your thoughts, and hope things go well.

IComLeavWe

Oh my gosh! IComLeavWe starts today. I almost forgot! Thank goodness for Mel, otherwise I would have completely forgotten. I am so very excited about this!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sore

I physically hurt today. I think this is a sign I have been pushing myself too hard, or that I am too stressed out. I have not been running as often as I should. Working out really helps me feel better, and I believe it even helps me think better. I have been trying to run in the afternoons after work. The only problem is that I have been staying late too often to get my workout in. The only other option is to wake up at 4:30 in the morning to run before work. I am seriously thinking about doing this. I have a treadmill, and I have a nice neighborhood to run in. Either would work, and I would not have to try to fit it in later in the day. I think it may be worth a try for a couple of weeks. Just to see.

Work had been crazy, and I think I have been pushing myself mentally and physically, and then I have not been able to have a break. I know that it is not like that all the time. At least I think it is not like that all the time. I still feel like things are very new, and it still feels strange to be doing things by myself. i think it will take about a year until I feel more comfortable in my role, and even then I may end up in situations which make me uncomfortable.

And now for something completely different.
I think I may get a tattoo. I have had the idea in the back of my mind for a couple of years. Then one of the ladies I work with said she has found the perfect place to get a tattoo. It is owned by one of the OR secretaries. I like the idea of having a dragon watching my back. I am debating getting a small Chinese dragon at the small of my back. Dragons in Eastern cultures are good and usually protectors, despite their mean looks. What do you all think? Anyone with experience with tattoos?

Friday, July 18, 2008

Thank Goodness It's Friday!

Work was nuts Thursday and Friday. I ended up staying late both days for various reasons, and by the time I left on Friday, I was fried. I plan on enjoying the weekend. Hopefully I can sleep in a little. I know I just need to chill out. I thought about posting some about why work had been crazy, but thought better of it. Healthcare can be so tricky to talk about. At the moment, I am just glad for the weekend! I need the break.

I may post more tomorrow when I am more coherent. Right now I feel like I can barely string two words together.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

My No Good, Very Bad Day

I just want to cry. I had one thing I actually wanted to do for myself today, and I could not make it work. Now I feel like an idiot and a ditz because I cannot follow driving directions or a road map. I know I am blond, and that gives me a bit of a disability, but I just wanted good directions to my agility class. Apparently that was not to be. I ended up lost on the other side of town from where the class is held. With no phone number so I could not call the instructor, and I also realized I left home without my driver’s liscence. I was not doing really well.

This came on top of a stressful day at work dealing with an overly dramatic coworker with an orientee in a room full of residents. Everything for this co-worker is a big deal. And yes, we are doing surgery, so it should sort of be a big deal. But everything does not have to be a drama. I love days where things go well and the surgeon is relaxed. I will do everything I can to make sure that the surgeon is as relaxed as possible. Dealing with all of those people made me exhasuted and a little stressed out by the end of the day.
I was looking forward to coming home and then going to my agility class with my dog. Apparently that was not to be. The fates conspired against me and got me lost on the opposite end of town from the class. Now I feel like an idiot and a loser because I cannot find my way to my class.

I emailed the instructor when I got home. Hopefully she will call me or email me and we can work something out. I may have to take a pass on this session, and do the next one. The agility classes are only six weeks long, and they cancelled last week. Then I missed this week. Who knows. I guess we will see what happens.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, Hubby had a crappy day, too. It is a little after 7 PM as I am writing this, and he is now on the road to home. He is pissed at the jail because one of his innocent clients now has to spend an extra night in jail because they could not deal with his paper work. Hubby went above and beyond the call of duty on this. He stayed at the jail for this whiny-ass client to try to get him out, and was unsuccessful because of dumb jail paperwork. (I think that is what he explained to me. I am not in the legal field. I do nursing/medical stuff. )

I am off to have a glass of wine, and maybe a nice soak in the tub with a bodice ripper romance novel. I do not want to have to do a lot of thinking right now. I may have to have some chocolate later...

Monday, July 14, 2008

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Shifting Gears

I am starting to shift out of waiting mode, and into active mode. In the next few months, Hubby and I will start dong a few cycles of IUI with injectables with the local RE. Hubby told me that he would like to see me pregnant within the next six months. Honestly, I would like that, too. Hopefully one of the IUI and injectable cycles will work. We would love to have a child with his DNA. If not, I think we are going to have to go to donor insemination. One way or another, we want to get me knocked up. Hopefully we are close.

We opted not to do IVF and we decided that adoption is not right for us. One term I love is the term "emotional cost." Both IVF and adoption have a high emotional and financial cost. That is a price we are not sure we want to pay. That is why we are trying the IUIs and donor insemination first. We suspect that one of those will work. I think we are both hoping that one of those will work. My PCOS is workable. I think I have controlled it fairly well over the years, and losing a little bit of weight helps, too. I discovered that I ovulate. We did not realize until last year how big a problem the male factor could be. I think the time off of the IF roller coaster helped us both come to terms with our situation. Hopefully the IF treatment path we are on will work for us.

It is really difficult to get motivated in the summer, though. Lately all I have wanted to do is zone out. I have not wanted to do anything which involves a lot of thought when I am not at work. I think it is summeritis. I believe the heat is affecting me. All I want to do is read bodice ripper novels and play games online. (I love Big Fish Games!) Maybe my brain and my body are trying to tell me something. Maybe I should slow down a little.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Midweek blahs

Just a Wednesday and not much going on today. My first agility class with Gertrude got canceled due to weather. It was thundering and raining, and generally not a nice day to have a class outdoors. The agility classes are held in an agility field. It was just was well the class was canceled because my dog would not come out from under the bed. She is really scared of thunder, and automatically hides when she hears it. I hope the weather is nice next week. I am looking forward to this class.

Cool stuff at work, though. I got to scrub in at work today. That was unusual because usually I circulate cases, not scrub in. I was in room where we did laparoscopic cholecystectomies all day. I got to drive the camera in a couple of cases! I was so excited. I had never done that before. It was way fun! (Maybe my idea of fun is different from most people's idea of fun.) I realized I do sort of know what I am doing in the scrub role. I actually have a clue. That is really sort of neat, and a new experience for me. Likely they will put me back to circulating tomorrow. Maybe even back in GYN, if I am really lucky. (I would not mind scrubbing GYN, but they seem to need circulators more, for some reason.) Not really sure how I got out of GYN today. I guess they were just desperate.

On the weight loss front, I have not lost any weight, but I have not really gained any, either. Hubby and I have started tracking our points again, and I have started playing on my treadmill again. Working out really helps me stay sane. I just need to make the time to do it. Counting points can be annoying, but it helps us stay healthy, so we continue to do it.

Just waiting for Friday, and it is a payday this Friday! Even more to look forward to.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Show and Tell: Two for One

This week for Show and Tell, I am showing off two things. One is obvious. I am showing off my new space. I used to be in another space, but now I am here. I think it will be better for me, over all. All my stuff is in one place. Much more convenient.

The other part of my show and tell is a brag. People who have children can brag about their children. I have big dogs, so I brag about my big dogs. I recently finished a Beginner II Obedience class with Gertrude, our female Great Dane. I knew she was smart, so I was not too surprised when she got this at the end of the class:




I am so proud. I have an intelligent dog. The class made me realize how much training I was doing with her. A lot of the stuff they wanted me to teach her, she mostly knew. It also made me realize that she is really smart. We are signed up for a Foundations of Agility class during the next session. It starts this Wednesday. I think she will enjoy the agility a whole lot better than the straight obedience stuff. The agility also appeals to me a bit more. I think that is important. If the trainer is not interested, I think the dog can sense it.


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In other news, I am wiped out today because I started my period. At the moment, I am sitting in my yellow room, waiting for my Midol to kick in. I hope it kicks in soon. I am debating starting to track temps again this cycle. That way I have some data for when the RE gets back from vacation. I can also see how my cycles are doing.

I need to get back on the wagon with Weight Watchers. It really works for us, but we have not been tracking our food lately. Hubby and I both do it online, so we really do not have much of an excuse. Just lazy, really. This week we both said we would start again. So we will. I did my weekly shopping today. Just in case you are wondering, here is our weekly plan for dinners. We do not specify days, because you never know how we will feel once we both get home.

1. Turkey bratwurst/lowfat chips/fruit or veggie
2. Whole wheat pasta with roasted tomato sauce/salad
3. Grilled chicken/roasted red potatoes
4. seafood (steamed shrimp for me, broiled salmon for Hubby)/corn on the cob
5. Tacos
6. Pizza (I know, heavy on the points, but we love pizza, have to have it!)
7. Dinner out

Things I need to work on:
I think I really need to work on portion sizes this week. I cannot eat as much as Hubby and lose weight. I also need to try to drink all of my water quota this week. I am really bad about drinking at work. I cannot drink water while working in the OR, so I need to drink it at lunch and when I get home. I also wanted to try to do better working out. I discovered jogging works for me. It is quick, convenient, and I can do it. I have a treadmill at the house, so I have no excuse.

I hope all our US readers had a happy and safe 4th of July!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Too Funny!

I thought this was really cute!

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New home for me!

I think it will be easier for me if I am all in one place. I had time today, so I decided to go ahead and set it up. It is not perfect, yet, but I am just beginning.