Shifting Gears

I am starting to shift out of waiting mode, and into active mode. In the next few months, Hubby and I will start dong a few cycles of IUI with injectables with the local RE. Hubby told me that he would like to see me pregnant within the next six months. Honestly, I would like that, too. Hopefully one of the IUI and injectable cycles will work. We would love to have a child with his DNA. If not, I think we are going to have to go to donor insemination. One way or another, we want to get me knocked up. Hopefully we are close.

We opted not to do IVF and we decided that adoption is not right for us. One term I love is the term "emotional cost." Both IVF and adoption have a high emotional and financial cost. That is a price we are not sure we want to pay. That is why we are trying the IUIs and donor insemination first. We suspect that one of those will work. I think we are both hoping that one of those will work. My PCOS is workable. I think I have controlled it fairly well over the years, and losing a little bit of weight helps, too. I discovered that I ovulate. We did not realize until last year how big a problem the male factor could be. I think the time off of the IF roller coaster helped us both come to terms with our situation. Hopefully the IF treatment path we are on will work for us.

It is really difficult to get motivated in the summer, though. Lately all I have wanted to do is zone out. I have not wanted to do anything which involves a lot of thought when I am not at work. I think it is summeritis. I believe the heat is affecting me. All I want to do is read bodice ripper novels and play games online. (I love Big Fish Games!) Maybe my brain and my body are trying to tell me something. Maybe I should slow down a little.