At the ob/gyn office, waiting on the doc.
Babies and children do not seem to bother me anymore.
But pregnant bellies still freak me out.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Summer Camp
Summer Camp Day 29: If you could live anywhere for one month this summer, where would it be and why? Would you ever unplug from the internet for a month or longer to go on such a trip?
I would love to spend time at the beach. I like going to the beach and spending a lot of time doing nothing. Before we had Little Dude, I went every year. Or at least tried to go. The Outer Banks is my favorite beach. But only in the less developed areas, like down toward Avon or Hatteras. I cannot stand to see huge hotels or condos on the beach. It rubs me the wrong way, for some reason.
Unfortunately, I think the days of the relaxing beach vacation are behind me. Vacationing with a child is a lot different. It is still a lot of work. Though there is something nice about getting out of town, and just being somewhere different.
I do not think I could unplug completely for a month. I am too dependent on the internets. I think both Hubby and I are too dependent on the internet. Even when we go on vacation, we try to find a place with internet.
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I would love to spend time at the beach. I like going to the beach and spending a lot of time doing nothing. Before we had Little Dude, I went every year. Or at least tried to go. The Outer Banks is my favorite beach. But only in the less developed areas, like down toward Avon or Hatteras. I cannot stand to see huge hotels or condos on the beach. It rubs me the wrong way, for some reason.
Unfortunately, I think the days of the relaxing beach vacation are behind me. Vacationing with a child is a lot different. It is still a lot of work. Though there is something nice about getting out of town, and just being somewhere different.
I do not think I could unplug completely for a month. I am too dependent on the internets. I think both Hubby and I are too dependent on the internet. Even when we go on vacation, we try to find a place with internet.
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Thursday, July 28, 2011
Touchy-feely Thursday
Because I forgot to do it on Tuesday.
Everyone is doing better in the house. We are all sleeping better. Baby has even slept through the night the past couple of nights. Not sure where that came from, but I hope it continues. I feel almost human. Not expecting much on that, though. Just trying to appreciate it while I have it.
Doing better with WW recording my food. The behavior mod has been fun, as I have been able to get a new song the past couple of weeks. It is getting to be habit to do it once a day. I still need to work on eating less, but at least I am recording stuff. Have not been on a scale in a while, though. So I have no clue if it worked.
I just finished the Trylle trilogy by Amanda Hocking. I went through it in about a week, and it is probably the reason I have been slacking in the summer camp department. I would be more fascinated with trolls than vampires. I have always marched to the beat of a different drummer, I guess.
Speaking of summer camp, I decided to skip the last two day's prompts. I just do not think that I am a great person to give advice. There are times when I would weigh in the comments and share my experience, but everyone has different experiences. What works for me may not work for you. I also do not watch a whole lot of TV. I usually go for series that are vastly different than my current life. I like the escape factor. Anything else, I just ignore. So I have no idea how to answer a question comparing my life to TV.
I have a mommy's group outing today. We are going for a stroller walk on a local trail. This should be interesting, as I hardly ever use the stroller, and have never taken a long walk with him in the stroller. I am not sure what to expect. I usually carry the baby on walks. But he likes the stroller, and he might do fine. I am thinking of putting my ergo in the stroller, just in case I need it. We will see what happens.
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Summer Camp Day 28: What size family do you come from, what size family do you want, and why?
I come from a typical nuclear family. My immediate family was mom, dad, my younger sister, and me. I think it was a good size for a family. My maternal grandparents, and my aunt were in and out of our lives throughout my childhood.
I liked the childhood I had with a sibling. I think that is why I want a family of four.
When I was in high school I used to joke that I wanted 2.5 children, which was the average at the time.
Two children are not a huge number, and anything more than three is a little crazy, I think. I want two children, so that my children can grow up with a sibling. I know that means going back to the Wizard for more help, and the whole idea of me bring pregnant again freaks out the Hubby. But at some level I have always wanted two children. After this one I am done. Promise. (If it makes the Hubby feel better, I am even willing to get my tubes tied after the next one, even though I doubt it will matter.)
Everyone is doing better in the house. We are all sleeping better. Baby has even slept through the night the past couple of nights. Not sure where that came from, but I hope it continues. I feel almost human. Not expecting much on that, though. Just trying to appreciate it while I have it.
Doing better with WW recording my food. The behavior mod has been fun, as I have been able to get a new song the past couple of weeks. It is getting to be habit to do it once a day. I still need to work on eating less, but at least I am recording stuff. Have not been on a scale in a while, though. So I have no clue if it worked.
I just finished the Trylle trilogy by Amanda Hocking. I went through it in about a week, and it is probably the reason I have been slacking in the summer camp department. I would be more fascinated with trolls than vampires. I have always marched to the beat of a different drummer, I guess.
Speaking of summer camp, I decided to skip the last two day's prompts. I just do not think that I am a great person to give advice. There are times when I would weigh in the comments and share my experience, but everyone has different experiences. What works for me may not work for you. I also do not watch a whole lot of TV. I usually go for series that are vastly different than my current life. I like the escape factor. Anything else, I just ignore. So I have no idea how to answer a question comparing my life to TV.
I have a mommy's group outing today. We are going for a stroller walk on a local trail. This should be interesting, as I hardly ever use the stroller, and have never taken a long walk with him in the stroller. I am not sure what to expect. I usually carry the baby on walks. But he likes the stroller, and he might do fine. I am thinking of putting my ergo in the stroller, just in case I need it. We will see what happens.
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Summer Camp Day 28: What size family do you come from, what size family do you want, and why?
I come from a typical nuclear family. My immediate family was mom, dad, my younger sister, and me. I think it was a good size for a family. My maternal grandparents, and my aunt were in and out of our lives throughout my childhood.
I liked the childhood I had with a sibling. I think that is why I want a family of four.
When I was in high school I used to joke that I wanted 2.5 children, which was the average at the time.
Two children are not a huge number, and anything more than three is a little crazy, I think. I want two children, so that my children can grow up with a sibling. I know that means going back to the Wizard for more help, and the whole idea of me bring pregnant again freaks out the Hubby. But at some level I have always wanted two children. After this one I am done. Promise. (If it makes the Hubby feel better, I am even willing to get my tubes tied after the next one, even though I doubt it will matter.)
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
More Summer Camp Ketchup
Summer Camp Day 23: What are your favorite activities to do on-line? Is there more to do beyond blogging?
My favorite thing to do on-line is blogging and reading blogs. This is where I spend most of my online time, and I even use google reader. Second to blogging is googling various subjects in a simulation of research.
There is a lot I do beyond blogging. Though I do not always blog about it. I work out regularly, take the baby swimming and go swimming myself, walk my dogs, cooking, shopping, taking the baby to his grandparents, taking the baby on outings like the park, try to attend activities for my mother's group.
Having a very active toddler makes you active by association. I have just decided to roll with it. It is probably good for me, too.
Summer Camp Day 24: What is your dream date? Have you ever dated anyone you met from the internet?
Dream date would be dinner at the fancy steak place in town. It is fun to dress up every now and again. I do not get a chance to do it very often. And we have actually done this, and may do this again in the future. The steak was too good not to do it again. But we are saving it for a very special occasion.
I have never dated anyone I met on the internet. I met Hubby about the time the internet was starting to take off. So I never really got the chance to do any internet dating.
Summer Camp Day 25: What did you want to be when you grew up? Why and/or how did that change over time?
When I was in high school, I really wanted to be a doctor. I think I always wanted a "cool" job and doctor sounded like it was interesting to me. I planned to major in biology, and go to med school right after college.
Once I got to college, I did end up a biology major, but I decided that med school was too much work. But I loved the sciences. I loved all the cellular biology I was learning. So I thought I would go to graduate school. But I was limited by location. Hubby and I got married the summer after I graduated, and he was still in law school. So I had to attend a school nearby. I did manage it, but I was not that thrilled with graduate school. It is a very lonely existence, and you have to be more in love with your research subject than other people. Not to mention, it is fairly competitive. Publish or perish seems to be the motto in graduate school. So I left the basic sciences.
We also moved back to Virginia so that Hubby could pass the bar and start his legal practice. I had no idea what I wanted to do. I ended up going back to my alma mater and getting a graduate degree in education. Which I sort of felt was a waste of time. I did not mix well with the other teachers, and I hated teaching in the high school. Sigh.
So I looked around again. I worked temp jobs for a while until I figured it out.
And then 9/11 happened. Which shook up everything. My parents were in Northern Virginia at the time, which scared me quite a bit. I ended up seeing a counselor for a while, and she really helped me figure out a lot of things. Including my direction in life. She was the one who brought up nursing school. I looked into it, and applied at Radford. And got in. I felt right, and it came together easily.
And once I started working in the operating room, I realized that I had finally found my people. I loved the morbid sense of humor, the sarcasm, the cynicism. I finally fit in. And OR nursing jobs are almost every where. So I had no problem getting a job. For some reason, most nurses do not want to do OR nursing. It is way better for me, as I really prefer my patients asleep.
So I did end up with what I consider a "cool" job. It is just not the job I pictured when I was younger. But it works for me now.
My favorite thing to do on-line is blogging and reading blogs. This is where I spend most of my online time, and I even use google reader. Second to blogging is googling various subjects in a simulation of research.
There is a lot I do beyond blogging. Though I do not always blog about it. I work out regularly, take the baby swimming and go swimming myself, walk my dogs, cooking, shopping, taking the baby to his grandparents, taking the baby on outings like the park, try to attend activities for my mother's group.
Having a very active toddler makes you active by association. I have just decided to roll with it. It is probably good for me, too.
Summer Camp Day 24: What is your dream date? Have you ever dated anyone you met from the internet?
Dream date would be dinner at the fancy steak place in town. It is fun to dress up every now and again. I do not get a chance to do it very often. And we have actually done this, and may do this again in the future. The steak was too good not to do it again. But we are saving it for a very special occasion.
I have never dated anyone I met on the internet. I met Hubby about the time the internet was starting to take off. So I never really got the chance to do any internet dating.
Summer Camp Day 25: What did you want to be when you grew up? Why and/or how did that change over time?
When I was in high school, I really wanted to be a doctor. I think I always wanted a "cool" job and doctor sounded like it was interesting to me. I planned to major in biology, and go to med school right after college.
Once I got to college, I did end up a biology major, but I decided that med school was too much work. But I loved the sciences. I loved all the cellular biology I was learning. So I thought I would go to graduate school. But I was limited by location. Hubby and I got married the summer after I graduated, and he was still in law school. So I had to attend a school nearby. I did manage it, but I was not that thrilled with graduate school. It is a very lonely existence, and you have to be more in love with your research subject than other people. Not to mention, it is fairly competitive. Publish or perish seems to be the motto in graduate school. So I left the basic sciences.
We also moved back to Virginia so that Hubby could pass the bar and start his legal practice. I had no idea what I wanted to do. I ended up going back to my alma mater and getting a graduate degree in education. Which I sort of felt was a waste of time. I did not mix well with the other teachers, and I hated teaching in the high school. Sigh.
So I looked around again. I worked temp jobs for a while until I figured it out.
And then 9/11 happened. Which shook up everything. My parents were in Northern Virginia at the time, which scared me quite a bit. I ended up seeing a counselor for a while, and she really helped me figure out a lot of things. Including my direction in life. She was the one who brought up nursing school. I looked into it, and applied at Radford. And got in. I felt right, and it came together easily.
And once I started working in the operating room, I realized that I had finally found my people. I loved the morbid sense of humor, the sarcasm, the cynicism. I finally fit in. And OR nursing jobs are almost every where. So I had no problem getting a job. For some reason, most nurses do not want to do OR nursing. It is way better for me, as I really prefer my patients asleep.
So I did end up with what I consider a "cool" job. It is just not the job I pictured when I was younger. But it works for me now.
Monday, July 25, 2011
My expectations were not met.
And I am not all that happy about it.
Today started all right, though I ended up taking Little Guy to the cell phone store. My mom could not do it. Don't know why I bothered.
Then I ended up shuttling my mom to and from a doctor's appointment because she could not see. That took the rest of the morning.
She kept trying to talk to me about traveling places with the baby. That is what set Hubby and I off this weekend. So I really did not want to talk about it.
Little Guy fell asleep in the car on the way home, and now will not go down for a nap. And I know he is tired. He fell asleep in the car. Idiot.
I have had no time to sit down and set up my replacement phone, and now I have a crying baby who is not happy about going down for a nap.
All I want is a chance to catch my breath. Without a crying baby in the background, pissing me off. Apparently that is too much to ask today.
Oh, I forgot to mention that Little Guy woke up at 5 AM. Um, yeah. And I still have not recovered from my crappy sleep this weekend.
But Hubby and I have talked, and we are better. He was just afraid I was slipping into old patterns. We made up. But we are both exhausted, because neither of us got a lot of sleep that night. And Little Guy insists on getting up early. If he is up, everyone else has to be up, too.
And now Little Guy has thrown everything out of the crib and is still crying, and the dog wants in. I guess I will try nap time again in a bit. But I am not happy.
Finally, we have successful nap! Only took about 30 minutes of bawling and tantrum before he finally slept! I ended up escaping downstairs and turning off the baby monitor. It gave me the chance to finally get my phone set up again.
Today started all right, though I ended up taking Little Guy to the cell phone store. My mom could not do it. Don't know why I bothered.
Then I ended up shuttling my mom to and from a doctor's appointment because she could not see. That took the rest of the morning.
She kept trying to talk to me about traveling places with the baby. That is what set Hubby and I off this weekend. So I really did not want to talk about it.
Little Guy fell asleep in the car on the way home, and now will not go down for a nap. And I know he is tired. He fell asleep in the car. Idiot.
I have had no time to sit down and set up my replacement phone, and now I have a crying baby who is not happy about going down for a nap.
All I want is a chance to catch my breath. Without a crying baby in the background, pissing me off. Apparently that is too much to ask today.
Oh, I forgot to mention that Little Guy woke up at 5 AM. Um, yeah. And I still have not recovered from my crappy sleep this weekend.
But Hubby and I have talked, and we are better. He was just afraid I was slipping into old patterns. We made up. But we are both exhausted, because neither of us got a lot of sleep that night. And Little Guy insists on getting up early. If he is up, everyone else has to be up, too.
And now Little Guy has thrown everything out of the crib and is still crying, and the dog wants in. I guess I will try nap time again in a bit. But I am not happy.
Finally, we have successful nap! Only took about 30 minutes of bawling and tantrum before he finally slept! I ended up escaping downstairs and turning off the baby monitor. It gave me the chance to finally get my phone set up again.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Can't sleep.
I have been trying to get to sleep for the past hour, without success.
I think it is because I hurt.
My heart hurts.
I feel like my husband does not see me. Or at least said things meant to hurt.
He told me I was unhappy.
I guess that is what he sees.
I think that hurt most of all.
I think it is because I hurt.
My heart hurts.
I feel like my husband does not see me. Or at least said things meant to hurt.
He told me I was unhappy.
I guess that is what he sees.
I think that hurt most of all.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Friday Whine
I just need a space to vent. Feel free to skip this post...
I had a frustrating day today.
Here is what went wrong:
It just felt like more went wrong today than right. All the important stuff got done, but I did not get to do any of the fun things which help me get through the day with an active toddler.
Thank goodness tonight is pizza night. I may have an extra glass of wine, too.
I had a frustrating day today.
Here is what went wrong:
- Went to the zoo this morning, right as it opened. It was too hot to truly enjoy it. Even the animals looked miserable.
- Got my replacement phone today, but could not activate it. I tried several times. (My current phone is having issues with the touch screen.) I am going to take in to a store and have them activate it. But I cannot do that until Monday.
- Tried to go to the pool, but it was closed when I got there. Apparently they had to clean up an "accident." I did run, since I was there. But the pool would have been heavenly! I was really disappointed.
- As we were shuttling cars around this evening, I tried to convince Hubby to go by Chick.fillet to let Little Guy check out in their play area. But Hubby had a wardrobe malfunction on our way there, so that did not work out, either.
It just felt like more went wrong today than right. All the important stuff got done, but I did not get to do any of the fun things which help me get through the day with an active toddler.
Thank goodness tonight is pizza night. I may have an extra glass of wine, too.
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