Sunday, August 9, 2009

At least I had the weekend.

I finally had a weekend to get caught up on rest, housekeeping, and hubby time. Our dinner last night was wonderful. The food was excellent, and it was lovely having an evening with just the two of us.

I also finally have a clean house. The bathrooms are clean, the floors are vacuumed, and our sheets are changed. I feel better able to face the week with a clean house.

I do not really want to go back to work on Monday. I am not sure how much of that is pregnancy blahs, and how much is because my job just sucks. It is likely a mixture of both. My vacation is about 6 weeks away. I think I can make it without going nuts, but it will likely be close.

I have felt really used and abused at work. You all are probably getting tired of hearing it. I will try to complain less, but I need to get this off my chest. Last week I was scheduled 4 hours of overtime. Late in the day on Friday, the charge nurse was talking to me, and she was worried because I had not smiled all day. I told her I was exhausted, and I hurt, and all I wanted to do was go home. Unfortunately, she did not send me home, and sent me to a room after a break. At least I got the break. Also, apparently one of my managers wanted to talk me, likely about attendance. I did not think my attendance has been too bad, aside from calling in that one time. But maybe that is enough to get a talking-to. Sigh. It is soooo tempting not to return after maternity leave is up. It is enough to drive me back to the floor, or even to a clinic. Maybe even graduate school.


kate said...

I always feel better when my house is clean, but I sure hate doing it.

I'm sorry that your job is sucking right now. I always had attendance issues (even though they should've counted themselves lucky that I EVER showed up), but that's mostly because I'm beginning to think that I'm psychologically incapable of being a good employee. I think about going back to work and I feel sick to my stomach. So I vote for going back to grad school after maternity leave!

And also, thank you so much for your kind words and support on my recent posts. I really appreciate it!

Lorza said...

I am sorry that work sucketh. There is nothing worse than a job that wears you down to the nub. As you know, I used to work ER/Neuro ICU/Neonatal ICU/etc...and I now work in an Urgent Care Clinic and I love it. Don't get me wrong- it is work. Nurses are abused as a rule by patients...but I love my job now. I will never work anywhere else again as long as we live here.

I think a lot of it is the management, and my co-workers. Some of it is the level of stress and responsibility. It is still there, but it isn't life or death minute by minute. I will never work ER again- not the way so many people use it as a primary care facility.

Anyhoo- I hope you find some peace. If the finances are there for you to stay at home after the baby comes, maybe this is the universe telling you that!!

~Jess said...

I need to clean my house :-( I don't want to.

I'm sorry that work is so terrible...hopefully it get's better or something gives at work *hugs*