2 AM, and I cannot sleep. I think I have a good excuse, though. Little Dude feel out of his crib and scared both the Hubby and I. Little Dude was crying and fussing in his crib around 11 PM, and I was on my way in to get him when I heard a thump. Baby then started crying again. I found him in the middle of our nursery floor. We checked him over, and all parts still move, and there appears to be no permanent damage. He calmed right down after nursing, too. I gave him some ibuprofen to help with pain, as he is teething. Hubby also decided to lower the crib mattress, which seemed like a good idea. The fall scared both of us.
Unfortunately, all this activity kept me and the baby up for about two hours. I spent the past hour lying in bed, trying to go to sleep. Why is it that when you desperately want sleep, it always seems to elude you? It is really frustrating. For the past few nights, I have been up with the baby for a couple hours in the middle of the night, trying to get him back to sleep. It is really frustrating. I have found I cannot let the baby cry. It kills me to hear it, and he never seems to calm down. He just gets more frustrated and ends up screaming. Then I have to go in an calm him down anyway. I am sick of being up in the middle of the night. Hubby won't do it because he has to work the next day (as I do too!) and he is sick right now. Also, the baby cries unless it is me comforting him in the middle of the night. I do not know what to do. I feel stuck.
Being awake in the middle of the night, I also start worrying about things. I am worried about all the classwork I have to do. I need to create a test by the end of the weekend, so I can be sure it gets printed in time. I have to put together notes for the next chapter, and I have a bunch of grading to do next week. It feels like I have no time to do all that. It does not help that I am losing sleep by being up the middle of the night. Sleep deprivation is not fun. All I want is sleep. Is that so much to ask?