And the waiting continues.

The massage therapist did mash on the magic acupressure points. I have been crampy since the massage, but nothing organized, and nothing really strong. I think I did have a few small contractions last night. They really hurt, but I guess they could have been really strong braxton-hicks. They were spread out over several hours, though. They did not occur again after I took a bath, so I was able to sleep through the night.

I think both Hubby and I are just looking for patterns, and truly hoping for labor. Anything to end the pregnancy!

Here is hoping that all this crampiness organizes into something! Come on, baby!

I was fine until...

I lost control of my bladder. I am not talking about a couple of drops or a small amount of discharge. I am talking about my bladder letting go without warning. (And I am sure it is not my water breaking. It smelled like urine, so I am pretty sure it is urine.) I am not a happy camper. I go to the bathroom, and when I am done, I squirt when I stand up! Very frustrating! It is time for this little one to come out so that I can have my body back. The incontinence is the last straw!

Due date is today, but he does not seem to be giving any indication of going anywhere. (Other than wanting to sit on my bladder.) He is kicking and making his presence known, but that is about it. No signs of labor. Much to my disappointment. I have a pregnancy massage today, so maybe they can work on acupressure points and get things moving. We can only hope.

I am sort of hoping to go into labor on Friday. I know I have very little control over when I will actually go into labor, but Friday would be great. My OB is on call that day, Hubby is not really working that day. It would be great. I guess all I can do is wait and see what happens. More waiting....

And still waiting...

I feel like I am starting to sound like a broken record. Nothing new this OB appointment. BP fine, and my other numbers look good. Nurse practitioner told me that nothing is happening with my cervix. It is still high. This child is in no hurry to go anywhere. It is very frustrating.

I have to think that the twinges, the pulling, and the back pain indicate that something is happening in there. He is also fairly active. That also has to indicate something. I want to feel like he is ready to come out, but there is no indication that he is actually doing anything productive. At the moment, it feels like I will be pregnant forever. I know that is not true, but that is the way it feels for me right now.

My next OB appointment is with a different doc. My OB is only working two days next week, and she is over booked both days, so I have to see someone else. And I have to see a doctor, not an NP. I am not all that happy about the one I have an appointment with, but she may end up with me in the labor room, so I probably ought to figure out how to deal with her. I hope that if I see her in the office, she will not be on call when I finally do go into labor. Here's hoping, anyway.

More waiting.

Still nothing on the baby front. We will see what happens at my OB appointment tomorrow. My OB is off this week, so if I do go into labor it will be a crap shoot as to who I get. Well, really, it would be the same if my OB was on, as she is part of a large practice. Though if she were on, she would likely round on me at some point. Fortunately, I like most of the docs in the practice. There are a few I hope to avoid, but I doubt I will have a choice in the matter. Pretty much I am praying that someone good is on when our little one decides to make his appearance. Keeping fingers crossed.

My college classmate gave birth to a baby boy! She has been sort of scarce on FB, so I do not truly know how she and the little one are doing. I hope all is well.

Queenie over at Baby, Borneo, or Bust went into labor. Hooray for her! I am sure we will see pics of her little one before long.

With all these people having their babies, I feel sort of left behind. I know it will happen. And I am fairly sure he will be here before the end of the month, but the wait is not fun. Especially for someone as impatient as I am!

nothing new.

Still waiting. Nothing new to report. Next appointment is Monday with the NP. I may be slightly disappointed if he decides to arrive while my OB is off. But not too disappointed, as I am ready to be done with this pregnancy!

I saw on FB yesterday that a college classmate of mine was hospitalized yesterday with pre-ecclampsia and gestational diabetes. She was due in another month or two. It made me think about how lucky I am to have missed those two issues with this pregnancy. It also made me think about luck, in general. I know I was/am at risk for both pre-ecclampsia and gestational diabetes. I suspect that I was a more likely candidate to actually come down with these conditions. I am overweight, have PCOS, and this is my first pregnancy at 35. How did I manage to avoid bed rest and hospitalization and my healthier, lighter classmate did not? Maybe it had to do with the approaches our OBs took. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I knew a lot about my metabolic issues heading into my pregnancy (thanks, IF!), and my docs were able to take steps to control them. I do not know what made the difference between us. I know that I feel for her and her little ones. I suspect that she is likely scared for herself and the baby. I wish her all the best and I am keeping her in my thoughts. Hoping for a good outcome all around.

As for me, all I know is that at 39 weeks, I know my baby is full term, and both mother and baby are relatively healthy. I think that is something to be thankful for.

And still waiting...

OB fly-by was uneventful. BP was slightly lower than last week, at 130/80. Everything else looked good, too. Cervix is still high, though. Baby is in no hurry to go anywhere yet.

My OB is off next week, so I have a fly-by with the NP.

So I am still waiting....
No if only my sinuses would clear, I would have an easier time waiting.

Welcome to 2010

Our New Year's Eve celebration was fantastic. It was fun hanging out with my family, and Hubby was a star and did all the cooking. He rocked. He even cleaned the kitchen the next day. A good time was had by all. I only made it to 10:30 PM, though. I was pretty tired at the end of the evening. I think I am still recovering, as I am exhausted.

I have had no energy the past couple of days. Even a nap this afternoon did not help me feel any better. I am a little queasy, really tired, and generally do not feel good. I had a couple of BH contractions this morning. One after I got up to go to the bathroom, the second as I was eating breakfast. I had to lay down before I was finished eating. The contractions really sort of hurt. (Not as bad as labor, I suspect.) I hope this is a good sign that the end is near. I am ready to not be pregnant anymore, and both Hubby and I are ready to welcome our little one in to the world. Though I think Hubby still gets a bit of kick out of me being pregnant. He even commented on it today. For some reason, he was even excited about my stretch marks.

I have not had a lot of thought on the coming year. I have no resolutions, and the only expectation I have is that I will give birth. I know it will be a year of change, as I get used to being a mother and adapting to having a little one around. I think that is enough for anyone, really.

2009 for us was definitely a year of expectation. We finally got the chance to do an IVF cycle in April, which produced our little one, still to be born. We dealt with pregnancy, and the freaking out of my body. I realized that I have to change how I think in order to handle the stress of pregnancy on my body. And likely I will also have to change how I think after becoming a mother. I am amazed that I am actually able to grow another human. Though it would have been nice to have an easier pregnancy. I am sort of hoping this indicates that my little one will be a good baby, as he made my life hell throughout his gestation.

I hope that 2010 is good to everyone!