Thursday, February 17, 2011


There have been a bunch of pregnancy announcements from bloggers who had IVF.  These pregnancy announcements are naturally conceived pregnancies.  I think it is great that they conceived on their own.  I am very happy for them, and I know that they are over the moon.


(There is always a "but" when it comes to infertility, isn't there?)

I want a naturally conceived pregnancy, too.  I wish it was that easy for me.  Some dreams never die, I guess.

For some reason, I know in my heart that I am not going to get it.  I can feel in my bones that I am going to have to go back for an FET with my frozen embryos and eggs. 

Right now, that sort of freaks me out. 

Fortunately, I do not have to do anything about it.  I am still breastfeeding, so an RE would not want to touch me right now, anyway.  I also really would like to have at least two years between children, so now is all wrong anyway.

Try telling that to my heart.  My heart is telling me that I want to do it again, right now!  My head is telling me to chill out and hold off, it will be better later.

Someone tell my heart to shut up.


Dean said...

Its hard isn't it? I read about all those natural pregnancies (and they seem like they are everywhere?). And I am truly happy for them, thrilled that they got pregnant naturally.
But, I know I will never ever be pregnant. And that is something I just have to continue to cope with.

Jamie said...

It ~is~ very hard. Even with my perfect Skeeter, the green monster still lurks.

I guess IF never really leaves us.

~Jess said...

(poop! I don't know if my other comment went through or not).

I know how you feel: I've been seeing those too ( and blogs). I wish it could happen to me *hugs*

Tami W. said...

Don't feel bad we are one of those couples who will probably always have to do ivf. We are pregnant again but it took a full round of ivf again! I also really wish it could happen naturally like so many others but I guess it's not in the game plan for us. Keep your chin up!