There have been a bunch of pregnancy announcements from bloggers who had IVF. These pregnancy announcements are naturally conceived pregnancies. I think it is great that they conceived on their own. I am very happy for them, and I know that they are over the moon.
But.
(There is always a "but" when it comes to infertility, isn't there?)
I want a naturally conceived pregnancy, too. I wish it was that easy for me. Some dreams never die, I guess.
For some reason, I know in my heart that I am not going to get it. I can feel in my bones that I am going to have to go back for an FET with my frozen embryos and eggs.
Right now, that sort of freaks me out.
Fortunately, I do not have to do anything about it. I am still breastfeeding, so an RE would not want to touch me right now, anyway. I also really would like to have at least two years between children, so now is all wrong anyway.
Try telling that to my heart. My heart is telling me that I want to do it again, right now! My head is telling me to chill out and hold off, it will be better later.
Someone tell my heart to shut up.
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Its hard isn't it? I read about all those natural pregnancies (and they seem like they are everywhere?). And I am truly happy for them, thrilled that they got pregnant naturally.
But, I know I will never ever be pregnant. And that is something I just have to continue to cope with.
It ~is~ very hard. Even with my perfect Skeeter, the green monster still lurks.
I guess IF never really leaves us.
(poop! I don't know if my other comment went through or not).
I know how you feel: I've been seeing those too (bump.com and blogs). I wish it could happen to me *hugs*
Don't feel bad we are one of those couples who will probably always have to do ivf. We are pregnant again but it took a full round of ivf again! I also really wish it could happen naturally like so many others but I guess it's not in the game plan for us. Keep your chin up!
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