Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Here we go...

Lu.pron starts tomorrow. Now that I know the dose is in milliliters, and not milligrams, I feel a lot better. No need to try to do a conversion from mg to ml. I really need to stop over thinking. A quick call to the Wizard's office and a conversation with the Wizard's nurse cleared up a lot of stuff. I guess I will start the medication in the morning. I can take the Lu.pron early in the morning or in the evening before bed. Nothing in between because I work a 12 hour shift tomorrow. Morning may be better to try to stay on schedule. I have my needles and medication at the ready. Well sort of. I at least located everything tonight.

The infertility roller coaster feels more real this time. This week I have felt like I am on the climb at the start of a roller coaster. The ride starts tomorrow with the lu.pron. And similar to a riding a roller coaster, I am really freaked out by the potential ride. I cannot control what happens. All I can do is strap in and try to enjoy the journey. Not a strong point for me.

Both Hubby and I are excited about our chances with IVF. The Wizard is also doing ICSI, which hopefully will improve our chances, as male factor is one of our issues. Hubby has already figured out when a little one (or two) are likely to arrive, should this cycle be successful. I think he is pretty excited about this. I am also sort of excited, but also afraid to hope. IVF has the highest percentage of success out of anything we have tried. The Wizard has a 50 something percent success rate for my age group. That is way higher than the success rate of IUI.

I guess I can allow myself a little hope.


'Murgdan' said...

Excited but also afraid to hope...yep, that about sums it up! YAY! So excited for you to get started!!!

Queenie. . . said...

So exciting! I find the hope creeps in, no matter what I do. But then, without it, we wouldn't do this, would we?

just me said...

hope keeps us all's hoping this is your cycle!

Jo said...

I've got that same sense of hope, although I'm a little behind you on this schedule. We will start ours in a few weeks (I hope!). I'm also looking at a HUGE jump in statistical success -- up to 60% vs. 20% with IUI.

I just have a gut feeling that THIS will be the answer we've been searching for.

Keeping you in my thoughts.


annacyclopedia said...

It is definitely exciting to get started, even though it comes with all those crazy roller coaster-y emotions.

I know hope can be scary, but I always figured that if it was there, I didn't need to squash it. If it wasn't there, that was ok, too. But for me, when it was there, I just tried to enjoy it.

Holding much hope for you this cycle.