Thursday, April 30, 2009

And so we wait....

Went in for my one week blood work today. Just progesterone and estradiol, but hopefully it will come back good. We will see. Feeling much better today, too. Things are finally moving again. Thank goodness. We only have one more week to wait for beta. I am just not sure if this cycle worked. I will believe it when I see it.

I cannot think past beta. I almost do not want to hope because I know the post-beta crash if the result is negative will be really bad. On the other hand, with our shared risk program I know we have another chance. And I know we have the embryos to try again. I think we can get several frozen cycles out of the embryos we retrieved. That does give me some hope. I think one of the best things about next cycle is that I do not have to do the stimulation and retrieval thing again. That totally sucked.

It is very hard because I have been open with my family and friends about this process. Everyone is very excited and hopeful. I think Hubby and I are a bit more reserved. One thing many people do not realize is that IVF is NOT a sure thing. There is no garauntee that we will get a baby as a result of this cycle. Hubby and I both understand this. Not sure if my friends and family understand it. I know my mother is hopeful and excited, and she is looking for good omens and praying for me. It would be nice if I only had to do one cycle, but I know that it is not always the case. I guess I just need to keep thinking sticky thoughts. And waiting. Sigh.

This week of waiting will drive me crazy. At least I go back to work starting tomorrow. I think I work almost every day until beta. At least I will be distracted and busy. I guess that is something. I already told Hubby that we are not celebrating anything on Sunday. I may even skip meeting because there will likely be references to THAT holiday. We may call our respective parents, but that is about all we will do.

My goal this next week: To try not to go crazy.

Edit: Hormone levels look good! Talked with the Wizard's new nurse, and things look good, so far. I wonder if I will get a call from the Wizard later. Hmmm.....


Mrs. Higrens said...

In talking to his mother last night about the IVF process, my husband repeatedly used "implant" to describe the transfer.

It drove me crazy and he didn't understand why the word he was using mattered. Phew.

Sticky thoughts flowing your way.

annacyclopedia said...

Hang in there - the wait is hard anytime but I can't even imagine the wait after IVF, and having family and friends all excited would be hard, too. I am sending you the stickiest of thoughts and hoping everyone is excited because they have psychic powers and can already see you BFP on the horizon.

Distraction is good - hope work does the trick!

'Murgdan' said...

Hang in there....and don't go crazy.