Naps.

I am really going to miss the morning nap when it goes.  It is sort of on the way out, as there are some days when he does not need it at all.  Just when I am getting used to it, it changes.  Sigh.

He is napping now, and I am grateful!  He will do so much better today with a nap, as he is not likely to get his afternoon nap before 2 PM this afternoon.  We are going to see the local St Paddy's day parade this morning, and my cleaning person comes today.  Hopefully that will help him go down well this afternoon.  I am debating a trip to the pool this afternoon.  I  may try to run while I am at the gym.  We will see what happens.

I suspect the time change will wreak havoc on his sleep schedule.  It does not help that he is in the middle of a mental leap, which is also messing with his sleep schedule.  Sigh.  I just cannot win for trying.  I hope things smooth out after a week or two.

Thanks for your comments on my last post.  I usually feel better if I get out and run.  I am better able to roll with things, and I think my sleep is better.  I may consider the Drumstick Dash this Thanksgiving. I think some of my co-workers do it, too.  We will see where I am at by the end of the year.  I hope that I can be consistent enough that I can do it.  Hopefully running on a regular basis will get my confidence up enough to try a race.  We will see.  I think I try to be perfect, and that is not something I need in this area.

Wishing everyone a great weekend!

Running

At the moment, I am running from grading.  I need to do midterm grades, but I would rather do this.  So I am running from grading at the moment to do this blog post.

I have a habit that is actually good for me.  I run a little.  More of a jog, really, as I am very slow.  I am not signed up for a race.  I am not doing couch to 5K.  I do not even consider myself a "runner."  I do not run every day, but I do try to run as often as I can

I run at the gym around the track.  I do walking and running intervals, and try to maintain good form.  I am more about avoiding injuries and fitness than competing in a race, and try to use chirunning form as much as possible.  (I think I have seen too many knee scopes and orthopedic procedures on runners, so form and injury avoidance is most important for me.)

I run when I can.  Not every day, and I try to get at least one day in between to allow my knees to rest.  Though I have run two days in a row and not had any problems.  I also stretch at the end of each session, which helps, too.

Running is a workout I can do relatively quickly.  It is not dependent on a time, like a class.  I go to the gym when I can.  The baby gets to play in the childcare area, which he loves.  They have a slide and a playhouse, and lots of toys and other kids for him to play with.  Mommy gets some time to herself, and she gets out of the house.

I want to run more regularly.  Someday it would be nice to try to train for a race.  I may consider a race when I am able to actually run more regularly and longer.  At this point, I am just trying to run consistently.  That is all I can do right now.

Touchy-Feely Tuesday, on a Wednesday

Yesterday was just weird, so I did not get a chance to post anything.

Still sort of sick, though feeling more human today, for some reason.  Hopefully this means that I will actually feel better by the weekend.  Here is hoping, anyway.

Figured out that baby was not sleeping because of teething.  Finally broke out the ora.gel, and increased the frequency of ibuprofen.  That finally got us a night of decent sleep.  Too bad I had to wake up at 5 AM this morning to go to work.  It still felt good to sleep with only one wake up.

Went to the orthopod yesterday to get Hubby's knee looked at.  No answers, unfortunately.  Knee looks good, and there is nothing obvious.  That got him really down, so he needed a lot of attention last night.  Not much time for much else.

We are enjoying playing with roku.  Hubby likes having all the shows available on Netflicks.  And having it on our TV is really nice.  Though it leaves less time for blogging and reading blogs.  Both activities are important to me.  Maybe I should talk about this with the Hubby.  I think a limit of one Roku show per night would be good.

The community college is on spring break this week.  Very strange not having anywhere to go the next couple of days.  But nice.

I have not been doing well with WW.  Have been horrible at recording my food.  I meant to today, and just never did.  Unfortunately, this also means that I have been gaining weight.  Sigh.  Really need to record food and get with the program.

Off to bed.  Hoping for another good night of sleep!

No time for this anymore.

Dear Mr. Cold Virus,

We have been together a little over a week now, and there seems to be no signs of you leaving.  I still have a runny nose, fatigue, and some achiness.  I truly feel like I am going to have this cold forever.  And I am sure you enjoyed the visit from AF this past week, too.  You two seemed to get along well, and enjoyed making me feel miserable for the past week.

I know you were excited to be with me when I got you within a few days of getting over GI Bug.  The GI bug was slightly more romantic, as we were together over Valentine's day.  In fact, it took me a week to fully get over him.  I felt normal for a few days, and then you show up.

I really tried to take it easy with you.  I moved slow all week, and tried to be as lazy as I could.  I even took off a day of work and sent baby to daycare so that we could be together.  Just the two of us.  This came on the heels of me taking off two days of work for GI Bug.

I will admit that it is difficult as you spread your attention everywhere.  The baby is spending time with you as well.  I suspect that is part of the reason you are sticking around so long.  We need to get up once or twice a night to tend to the baby, so I am rather sleep deprived at the moment.  And now you want to spend time with Hubby, too.

And I am fine with that.  But in order for you to spend quality time with Hubby, I need you to move on from me and the baby.  You see, man colds need a lot of TLC.  I think you will like that, and you will like it much better if I am more in a mood to give you the attention you deserve.

So consider this your eviction notice from me.  I do not have time for you any more.  I gave you a little over one week, and your time is now up.  It is time to move on to greener pastures. 

Yours,
VA Blondie

I want to be like this when I grow up!

Today I went to the Marginal Arts festival downtown with Little Guy and my parents.  We saw all sorts of unusual things.  Huge puppets, people in strange costumes, a piano being destroyed, a star made out of ladders, a giant rat.  He got to walk across bubble wrap and pop the bubbles.

He also got to see a few guys doing printing on the street.  You could get a shirt made of anything they had available.  They would print it right there for you to take home.

When I saw her, I knew I had to have her. 

I love octopi, and I am a bit of a water baby anyway.  So this was right up my alley.  Did you know that octopi are one of the smartest cephalopods?  How cool is that?

I think I want to be more like my octopus girl.  Everyone needs a goal, right?

A no good, very bad week.

And it is only Wednesday.

Both the baby and I have the cold from hell.  It was bad enough that I called in to work on today (Wednesday), and took the baby to the doctor in the afternoon.  The ped basically told me that he just has a really bad cold, and there is not much I can do.  (Other than what I am already doing.)  So we know I am already suffering from sleep deprivation.

On top of that, I got my period on Tuesday.  Yes, AF decided she had to show up, too.  Apparently she did not want to miss out on all the good times.

I received a text from Hubby while at the pediatrician's office.  Good friends of ours are expecting again.

We had just talked with this couple over New Year's weekend, and they said they were thinking about trying to conceive.  That did not take long.

That was just the icing on the cake for me.  I feel like I am surrounded by pregnant women and pregnancy announcements.  Having my period right now does not help matters.

So now I feel like crap from lack of sleep and a cold from hell.  On top of that is jealousy and a sense of loss for something I will never have.

After a decade of infertility, male and female factor diagnoses, I am fairly sure that I am not going to conceive naturally.  There is no link for us between sex and procreation.  On one hand that is freeing.  It does not matter what we do or when we do it.  We can have fun.  (Or as much fun as one can have with a toddler in the house.)  On the other, it is sort of sad.  I will never need to temp again.  There is no need to figure out when I ovulate.  There is no point to the 2ww, as conception in the bedroom is not possible.  No point to trying any of that.  I know that we will not be the 1 couple in 5 who conceive after IVF. 

(Though if a miracle occurs, I will not complain!)

All of this makes my uterus feel a little empty at times.  It still feels like a rejection when my period shows up.  I feel jealous of women who get pregnant very easily.  I will never have that, and that makes me a little sad.  I feel a sense of loss for something that I will never experience.  I probably need to acknowledge that loss and work through it.

I know I am not ready to get back on the roller coaster, yet.  But I want to do it again at some point.  I really want a sibling for our Little Guy.  Right now, FET sort of freaks me out.  Little Guy is not weaned, anyway.  So it is not possible now, in any case.

I just want this week to be over.  Hopefully I will make it through.

Touchy-Feely Tuesday

Feel like crap.  Baby gave me his cold, so I cannot breathe.  Afrin is my friend right now.  Problem is, it stops working after about 8 hours.  Trying to wait until I go to bed to take another dose.

Just to make it even more fun, AF decided to show up today.  I suspect I will be dead by the end of the week.

Even though I was sick, I went to the gym, anyway.  I think it did help me get through the day, but I am wiped out now.

Only gained a pound this week.  I will take it, and put it down to having my period.  I also did not record food today.  I only had the energy to teach and watch the baby.

At this point, I feel like I am just surviving.  Hopefully I will feel better later in the week.

Off to fix lunches and then bed.  Praying baby does not wake up a lot tonight.