Withdrawals.

Just so you know, I am not a huge caffiene drinker. I have one cup in the morning (down from 2 cups in the morning), and that is about it. The rest of the day I have water or diet ginger ale. Apparently I really needed that small amount of caffiene to wake my body up in the morning.

When I was being discharged from the hospital after my misadventure, the OB told me to cut out my one cup of coffee. I understand why. That could have been part of what triggered the incident. Probably best not to aggravate things. I get it. But damn, it is difficult giving up that morning cup of coffee. Decaf tea is not the same, though it does go down a whole lot easier. Fortunately, my co-workers do not have to put up with me during this time. It is not a pretty sight. I spend most of my time feeling like a slug and lying on the couch.

The incident did cause me to think about some things, and there are some things I may change. I have been throwing around the idea of going part time the next couple of months. Likely I will still work close to 40 hours anyway, but I will not have to use all my PTO to make up the difference. I really do not have a whole lot of PTO after I took that much needed vacation. (Unfortunately that vacation was cancelled out by the fact that my schedule was hellish after I got back. I really do not want to go back after maternity leave.) I may try to call HR today and talk to them about going part time. I think we can afford it. We may have to play with who pays which bills, but that is fairly do-able, I think. We were going to have to do that, anyway.

I am also thinking about getting a doula. Surprisingly, there are two in my area, and they do hospital births, and medicated births. I think it could be worth it, as I want as few interventions as possible, though I have a hunch I may end up with an epidural anyway. Just not that into pain, and I like most of the anesthesia providers at my hospital. (It seems most of them like me, as several came to check on me during the incident.) I am 35 and having my first child. I may not be high risk, but I think I am not exactly low risk, either. I want all the medical stuff around me. I just want to do most of stage I labor at home. I think that is what may help prevent interventions later on. Hopefully. The doula I am thinking of using also does breastfeeding supprt, which could be good as I really want to breastfeed. Still at the thinking stage, though. Nothing is definite right now.

Probably another slow day for me today. Not a bad thing, really.