Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I reject your reality and substitute my own!

I wish I did not have to deal with reality. I do not have anything specific to complain about, really. Just a general case of the blahs, and wanting a vacation really badly. I wish I could take a day just for me.

Two of the bloggers I follow are pregnant. I think it is fantastic they got the miracle they wanted. I know what they have been though to get there, and they should celebrate it. Now I want my miracle. For some reason, I feel left behind. I think it is the competitive streak in me. I should not feel bad for myself, because we are working toward getting me pregnant. We have the IVF consult coming up in a couple of weeks. That is step one. I think we will likely attend with calendars in hand and hopefully schedule a cycle. That is what I am hoping, at any rate. I have something to hope for, I just need to remember I have it.

I think I have come up with names for my docs. I think my Richmond RE will be called the Wizard of IF, or the Wizard for short. He is a little guy, and I always seem to see him from behind the sheet across my legs. Sort of seems appropriate. My Roanoke RE works with the IVF centers and monitors local patients, so I think I may call him the Apprentice. IF treatment seems a bit magical to me. There is a whole lot of chance involved.

And now for something completely different...
I am trying to decide if I want to actually compete in agility with Gertrude. There is an agility match coming up in March. I should be available that weekend. There is even a course of nothing but jumps and tunnels. I know she can do both of those obstacles for the match. The class I am taking will be going over skills I could use for the match. Competing makes me nervous. I will never know until I try, I guess. It will also be a nice distraction from everything else going on. I thought I would wait another year before trying to compete with her, but everyone keeps telling me that you have to start somewhere. She does do jumps and tunnels well.

7 comments:

~Jess said...

*hugs* I do know how you feel: I feel like a traitor lol One way or the other we all feel bad.

Hopefully your docs will be awesome and you'll be pregnant soon!

The competition sounds fun!

Queenie. . . said...

I just loved the title of this post. It totally cracked me up.

Go ahead and compete--what's the downside? It's not like your dog is going to be embarassed if she doesn't perform well.

Katie said...

I know what you mean, but you've still got me. Maybe we will end up pregnant at the same time :) I hope your appt goes well with the Wizard

annacyclopedia said...

Brilliant title. Absolutely brilliant.

I am hoping for your miracle to come soon.

Kristin said...

{{{Hugs}}}...

I have a post about a totally different subject with almost the exact same title. I hope the Wizard works miracles for you.

Also, good luck with the competition.

dana said...

I like the names you came up with for your doctors!
I hope they can schedule you soon.
Best of luck!

- dana
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Serendipity said...

I so feel you on the being left behind thing. I console myself with the fact that if I didn't feel sad & jealous whenever I heard of a pregnancy I'd know something was really wrong with me.

Your names for your doctors made me giggle :) I hope they work their magic for you.