For whatever reason, I am really nervous about this IVF consult appointment. IVF is new and unknown to me, and this appointment is just for a consult. But it is really freaking me out. I have felt a lot of tension in my shoulders lately, and it will not go away. Working out makes it decrease, but the tension is still there. I really think the tension is there because of the IVF consult.
I have all sorts of questions running through my mind. Will the Wizard be as wonderful as I remember him? I know that IVF is a good choice for us, but will it work with my schedule? (My schedule is crazy.) Will Hubby be able to make his donation at a time convenient to him? (Because his schedule is crazy, too.) Will the Wizard really be able to work with the Apprentice? Will I have to do another injection class, or can we skip it because we did a few cycles with injectables already. (Not to mention, I am a nurse! I went to school for that.)
I am probably making a mountain out of a molehill. This seems to be my nature, though. I worry a lot. I call it having control issues. That seems to be a polite way of putting it. (Others who are not as nice call it OCD.) In the OR it is a good thing. Outside of the OR, it tends to drive people batty. I try to let go, and do without doing. But it is really hard for me.
Just trying to keep breathing. One more day of work, and then I am off until March 3. (Maybe I should ask to go home early tomorrow.) I am really looking forward to Saturday. Saturday we are off to spend an evening getting drunk in an Irish pub and singing pub songs. I am really looking forward to that. It should be a nice distraction!