Touchy-Feely post is postponed to Thursday. This is more on my mind tonight.
AF showed up yesterday. I started seeing spotting, and I just knew that she would be there in full force by the end of the day. And I was right. I figured she would be arriving soon. It was time.
My mother, on the other hand, was rather disappointed. She was hoping that my SVT incident indicated that I was pregnant. She should know better. I am never pregnant without a team of medical professionals. Give it up, cause it ain't gonna happen.
Not sure why, but my mother's reaction sort of pissed me off. I have had a decade of infertility, almost all of it off of birth control. If it was going to happen on its own, it would have already. She knows what I have been through to get pregnant. But she still hopes that it will happen naturally.
I am not saying it never happens. There are a lot of couples who conceive naturally after IVF. One in five couples conceive naturally after IVF. I suspect most of those couples are younger, and I doubt they had such a long period of infertility. I just seriously doubt that we will be one of those couples. I am getting used to that fact, and learning to live with it.
(Though I have to say I feel like my period is stupid as it does not seem to indicate anything to me. It is mostly an annoyance. And messy.)
I cannot hope for anything. It is just too painful. All I can do it wait until it is right to try again for another child. And know that that it is not going to happen in the interim.